The world is a confusing place and I am strugling to understand it. You want emotion and ask for love from people, I give you want you want the best that I can and you hate it. I don't understand what more I can do. Maybe it is reality that things are moving apart and the earth is truly shaking beneath us moving us farther from one another. No matter how much we choose to hold eachothers hand the ground is pulling despite our best efforts and eventually we have to either seperate or take the plunge and hope the other will continue to hold. I am willing to plunge because I trust you will hold my hand and pull me to you side. I am no longer sure of what I am supposed to expect from this world but I do know the grass will grow nicer on with you and me located on the same side of heaven or hell. I want to pick your brain to see what your thinking each moment. Sometimes you miss me, sometimes you are not even excited to know I am still alive. I fight to bring myself home to you and you seem to care less about the fact I am still in one piece. War is not truly hell, love is hell because you can never understand it. I can bare so much physical pain and never faulter but the moment my heart is stricken I am down for the count. Please someone help me understand what I am feeling...